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☆Busy days☆
Sorry...
This few day kinda busy,keep outing with my girls..
And I am working as personal assistant for my lecturer Miss Win Win.
Quite tired..but learn a lot..
Dont worry about me~i quite enjoy my life now..
Busy make my mind no time to think something..=)
Im dint visit to his fb this few days~its a big improve for me~
I meet some talented artist..
I will very very busy now..
sorry to my girl,i cant upload the photo temporary..
i think i do it on friday..sry~=D
love you all!!<3




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☆Move On②☆
Im sorry..
im promise that i wont cry..
but i cry in the midnight..
i keep the puzzle...i saw ur photo..
everything related to u..
talk to ewone about u..
my tears come out from my eye..
i reli wan to noe why?
why you cheat on me?
is tat im not good enuff?
everything that good from turns to bad for u?
a man that could talk about girlfriend's bad thing infront of his friends,
its not gentleman at all..
i only need a success man,
a man who can give me a house, a home, full of care, full of love..
remember last time we talk about house,
u said we can pay together, and i say no no..u pay....
ur money i mine, my money still mine..
a lot girl will talk like tis, but in true they wont do that..
so do i...i plan everything in my heart.
i dun wan to let other ppl see my weakness..
i hope i can be a strong girl in front of me..
sometime i purposely talk other guys,
but u never jealous on it..sometime a man who jealous mean he care on gf..
but not u...even everynight i gastrik u never care on me,
in the next day u wont sms me ask about me..
but to other girl u do...
i tot i finish everything for my diploma i can spend more time with u,
and settle down everything slowly.. but no..
sometime i can feel tat what ur feeling, but i lie on me..
its reli hard to pass thru everything..really..
i still havent let my mom n dad noe about it..
i feel hard to explain.... impossible tat i told them he don wan me so we break.
just now my brother come into my room and talk to me,
i noe he try to make me happy..thanks gor..
even in other ppl mind u might not a good guy or person,
yet you are the one who love me...im appreciate it..love u..

I hope this is the last time for me to cry for him..
I just need a man who care,
who can give me a proper home..
come on, we not young anymore,
to a man, if you dint try your best to earn more money,
do you think you can handle a family or a home?
dont talk that dont treat money as the important role in life,
but i can say no money,the home will be very suffer..
no ppl wan to live hard,just see how you work..









☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆

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☆Move On②☆
我终于鼓起勇气装回我送他三周年几年的拼图..
一人装的感觉真的不一样..装得很久....
我以为我会变装边哭,原来没有..
等到装好的时候才发现少了一片..
找了包包房间所有地方都没看到..
也不懂去了哪里...那么巧少了一片..
是不是上天告诉我这段感情已经不能继续了,不完美了..
一个拼图少了一片就已经不再完美了,不再完整了..
忽然我笑了..也许上天要借这个来告诉我真的要放弃了...
也许那个框真的是时候让他去装上另一个完整的拼图..
而不是我这张了..
昨天跑到crystal家住..女孩们的pillow talk..
crystal做了一件让我笑到翻的事情..
她既然过toll忘了拿ticket就直接踩油过了...
笑死我啦.........
然后去唱k..呵呵~
明天早上还要早早起来跟ashli去拍照....
累叻...干嘛一直要吧我卖出去啊?...




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★Move On★
Today i had return his car to him..
pack all my stuff from his house..thanks to cecilia..
who accompany me a day,and make my day..=)
thanks to ashli pang accompany me,
although you dint say anything,
i noe you especially come accompany me..
Dont worry..just give me some time..
i will move on..
actually i reli want to travel..travel alone.=D
but i noe i couldn't make it..because im kind of people who scare lonely..
Went to movie day with cecilia..the fortune buddies..
kinda no logic..yet funny enuff...
Went to tomyam..this month i dunno ate how many times tomyam..=.=
when arrive home, darling ask me for yam cha..=)
just bought some macaroon from Rain..
15 macaroons.=.=
nice taste!!! muahahaha..
Im really touch when im depress everyone cares on me,
talk with me..thank you so much so much from my heart..
Everyone worried on me..
I cant delete him from my world in a short time..
But i will hide him in my deep deep heart that could not find..
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many many love to all of you..
I will be tough..A true tough, not pretending..
Time will prove..




❤Your comments are always be appreciative❤



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天蝎座的直觉是最准的...
我太笨啦~~~~
原来你喜欢上她...
你最终还是骗我...
你把我对你的爱糟蹋了..记得你说过你的前女友如何对你,
你说过不会这样对我,但是你做了..而且还是第二次.
你太强了..原来我什么都不是...
很多人都说我一定会挽回,但是朋友们，我不会..因为他要走我让他走..
我放弃了..其实我真的很想一巴掌给你们两个..
什么叫我朋友照顾我,如果你是关心我就不要这样对我..
我宁愿是你不爱我了,也不希望你爱上别人再来抛弃我..
当我是什么？找到一个填补你的心后再把我抛弃吗？
我是一颗球吗？
对了..对不起..我不会答应你的最后一次的要求..
对。。我恨你

忽然想到...送鞋子的pantang lalang..好像兑换到了..
yii..我顿时笑了起来...不信邪的我,开始相信啦....

5年的感情就这样结束了..
尽量让自己很忙很忙,不想有一点空闲让自己的脑空..
整晚没睡觉..多谢两杯的teh tarik..
阿衫跟henry特地赶回来..感动...朋友就是这个时候出现的..
阿衫他肥去了= = 小白脸的家伙..
躺在床上闭上眼,脑就开始想...
其实..我什么都可以容忍,但是我不能容忍背叛..
对..他再次背叛了我..看到他的不保护下..看到他对别的女孩说“我娶你”
看到他对别人说“我暂时不想结婚,不想娶她”“不想她住我家,没自由”
但是对着我说希望我住他家，谈谈我们的未来..
我顿时觉得,原来我身边的男人我已经变得不熟悉了..
其实当我早早看到这些东西,我沉默了..我忍下来了..
我想说我们都要去吃tao了..不想闹..很想要去tao好好地享受..
可惜,原来我错了,大错特错..也许他已经不爱我了..他把我一个人丢在角落..
看着每对情侣讨论吃什么,而我的他..已经自己决定自己的食物..
看到他们的男朋友拼命的拿食物往他们女朋友的盘丢..而我呢？
顿时心真的很冷..我拼命的忍..为什么我会觉得很寂寞...
那时,我真的没吃到什么..我第一次去tao,但是回忆真的不是很好...
心痛的是,我看到他的不保护,不帮我辩解...
他说了一句,sub player..3 4 month ago..
我的泪流了...我以为我一不在乎,原来不是...
他再次的伤害了我...他跟他朋友的每一句话,都伤了我很彻底...真的很彻底..
我觉得我超级失败...我不了解他..我不懂他..我既然让同一个人伤了又伤..
爱情是盲目的..当遇到的时候真的会不知所措..
我说过他要走，就走..我说过不要再骗我..可惜我错了..我相信一次又一次..
看到他说“她要的，我不会再给她" 我的坏脾气我的一切不好..
他说的明知道我家不能供我去外国读书我还坚持..但是他知不知道我安排的一切？
我等一年时间..我找着德国免学费的学院..我找的奖学金..
还说希望我快点走，这样他就有可以离开的理由..
原来我在她眼中那么的烂..为什么还要留着我？？
曾经我想过我耽误了他5年时间...我不想放手..我怕伤害了他..可惜我是在给他机会伤害我..
2天了..我没哭了..我以为我已经放掉了..可惜..我现在又在破例了...
我拼命控制自己不去关心他的一切..但是我每次都对自己说最后一次了最后一次了..
我真的很想知道我真的那么差吗？
我真的不值得他去爱吗？
我真的值得让他伤了又伤吗？

也许这个人我爱不起...爱他的代价太重了..我给不起..



Fish Long

我对这段感情已经很累了,
当我看到你对他说有别人了,3到4个月了..
我那时真的心死了..
对不起..
我爱不起你..你的爱..太沉重了

Fish Long