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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

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◆decision◆
i not going to "bother" u anymore..
i not going to find some "excuse" to go see u...
i not going to "torture" myself...
i not going to walk more "step" anymore..
bcoz i realize tat i try to step out..
but u jz sit at there watching me...
even i fall down u wont come to care me...
reason? excuse? all are enuff...
while i trying my best but u do nth..
mayb we should gv some space to each other..
mayb one day u will feel i am disappear in your world...
i trying not to pm u, not to see u, not to find u...
my blood almost finish bleeding for u...
yesterday u post the article...
wat 100 steps...
at last the guy come hug tat girl...
but u din do tat...at least tat guy start to step out..
u not.........


☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 11:23 PM by Fish Long.
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Tuesday, April 27, 2010

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◆Lying?◆
are u lying on me?
or playing on me??
tat day..when one month we break..
we talk in facebook...i tell u all the thing in my heart..
wat u say????...
u say if i wan wait u tiok wait,dun wan tiok no need..
wat is tat mean??
u ask me to wait...
wait wat??...
ok...we talk a lot a lot....
the most important thins is u say when the time is come u will chase me back..
but..after tat wat u post in facebook????

u say "不要再纠缠了好吗，喝完这杯咖啡就各自回家，变味的咖啡再加糖也不是熟悉的味道。。。对不起~"
is tat mean i 纠缠 u???...and sorry???
i dunno wat the heck u wan?..
last 2 days..i go ur house to see QQ's baby..
u say nth again...watever...i oledi guess tat...
i pack all my thing...n leave...same...din say anything...
i drive back...i dunno where to go..go round again...
finally i cannot tahan..i sms u ask u come out..talk together..
but u call me...ask me wat to talk..
even a chances for us to settle u oso dun wan to gv..
so wat should i say??wat should i talk???
u ask me drive slowly..do u think i will?...sry i wont...
i drive about 130-140...tis is the 1st time high speed at midnight...
i reli dunno wat u wan....wat u wan to settle...
the sms u say "等我解决我的问题了，我会从新追你"
wat tat mean?...and why u still talk in facebook like tat??
wat u wan????? can u talk properly...
ok...jz now i bath...
i think a lot a lot....
u lying on me...
i trying to protect myself!!!!
one week!!!! i gv u one week!!!
if u reli din gv me a proper answer!
i will gv up...i reli gv up..
bcoz i dunno wat u wan...
i trying to protect myself...
i dun wan u to hurt me...
dun ever try to 报仇 on me..like how ur friend teach u...
make me feel regret...
u now wat attitude i am...


☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 1:33 AM by Fish Long.
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◆wait?◆

wat is wait?
wat u wan me to wait?
wait to see how u enjoy ur single life?
wait to see how u sweet talk v other girl?
wait to see how u enjoy ur clubbing nite?
settle ur thing??
u say we not in same path..
wat path??
if u reli wan me doing same thing v u?????
wat u wan me to do??????????????????????????
tell me!!!!
god is playing at me

☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 12:29 AM by Fish Long.
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010
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◆one month◆

one month d...
we break one month d...
i oledi pass one month single life..
ppl ask me enjoy??...
erm...dunno....


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Written at 10:54 PM by Fish Long.
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Tuesday, April 20, 2010
◆Planing◆
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◆Planing◆
i have to plan all my time...
i have to manage all my time...
if not i will exhausted...
there is a mountain of assignment waiting for me...T^T
just finish the debate essay..
tension la...wednesday gonna face a debate in class...
and there will be a lot lecturer and student watch..
>.<...my english poor...i cant pronouns vry well... shit liao lor..tension tension!! but i will try my best!! i can de!!T^T my dark circle still same...big...panda... oh ya...i gotta plan the journey to KL Design Week.. if follow college go gonna spend RM200-RM250..jz include transport and hotel.. damn expensive..only for 2 days one nite.. if i drive myself i guess it will more cheaper.. but i am wondering my daddy allow me drive to KL or not..>.<
i havent talk v him yet...i dun dare talk v him neh...
tomorrow la..i try talk v him la...i hope he allow lor..
but my mom 100% not allow lah.....nvm nvm..
the most important is my dad~muahahaha
ok la...gonna slp le lor...good nite my friends~

p/s: tis is the last chance i gv u,u dun appreciate...i wont so stupid le..


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Written at 1:44 AM by Fish Long.
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Monday, April 19, 2010
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◆Holiday◆
Sunday~holiday~relax for a day..
bcoz coming days i will vry damn busy le..
T^T...
today,me and cecilia and oso her brother go prangin mall~
hoho...
i spend a lot money neh...
i buy some assignment stuff...and i bought new anti dark circle product..
its cost me RM 26.90...Nano White..hope will have good result lor!!
lolx...
oh ya oh ya...my hostel aunty eat my 8 of sausage..T^T..
although she gv back me..but she look like beh syok..haiz...
watever la..
angie put my aeroplane...T^T...
puppy love..i wan watch....
haiz......i remember girl girl oso say wanna go watch de..
but i think she oledi forget she got date me b4...suak liao..
wuwahhhh...i wan watch!!
its time to sleep~good nite everyone~~

p/s:i did it~❤


☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 1:57 AM by Fish Long.
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Sunday, April 18, 2010
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★$$Money$$★
I reli need money for recently..
morning,my lovely sweetheart jiejie call me~[wake me up early morning]
she talk to me..she ask me go australia end of this year while my holiday..
but the flight ticket is expensive...i cant afford...no ppl sponsor..T^T
she said she tot im will earn money while my internship..
but...internship's wages are low..a little bit..only can cover my daily life spends..
i gonna discuss v my lovely fatty gorgor..hope he sponsor me..
but there's only 10% chances..
jz now ashli msn me..ask me wanna work or not..
the wages quite attract me..nono..is vry attract me..
rm 70 per day..8pm to 12am..only 4 hr..6 days per week...
it reli reli attract me..but have to work 2 month..
and tat time is my final project time...
i wondering tat can i manage my time..wondering tat can i handle my project?..
and i am thinking now..vry annoy..
if 70 per day,6 days per week..there's 420 per week..1680 per month,3360 2 month..
tis oledi enuff to cover my flight ticket!!!!!!!
faint!!! wat can i do?..wat should i do??
help....>.<

【Money,Power, Success】

☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆


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Written at 1:39 AM by Fish Long.
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Saturday, April 17, 2010
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☀+机会+☀
什么是机会？
我觉得真的不需要了。。
一切都是骗人的。。。累了。。痛了。。伤了。。。
是时候包扎我的伤口了。。。
不想去在意什么了。。。
因为机会给了就过了。。。
不想让人家批评。。。
也不喜欢听到不喜欢的话题。。。
你的“朋友”所讲的话，我也不会去管。。
你每次都说你已经在做着某样东西。。什么什么的。。
如果有心就不需要等。。不需要那么长的时间。。
时间真的能证明一切。。
还有。。。你所谓的“网上朋友”说的话。。
真的很难听！
我知道你会看到这一个！
所以我想说从现在起，我不会去看你的profile..
不会留意你的一举一动。。
不会等你的电话。。。因为我已经放弃了。。。。


还有girlgirl,你让我太失望了。。
你最好不要骗我。。虽然我不是你的谁。。
可是我真的当你是我的好姐妹！
如果你真的还要踩下去。。。那我也不能说什么。。
因为我没有权利说什么了。。。。
我只希望你能坦白的告诉我。。不要骗我。。
朋友做到骗来骗去做莫？。。


大家晚安！我相信我是很坚强的！！！！！！


☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 2:06 AM by Fish Long.
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Monday, April 12, 2010
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☀+伤害+☀
我想说我不明白我干嘛一直在保护你？
而你都在伤害我。。
你根本不懂我的伤害有多深。。
从现在开始我不会让别人来伤害我！
从现在开始我会打开我的心！
从现在开始我不再为你封锁我自己！
你不要后悔。。因为是你在逼我。。。


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Written at 3:29 AM by Fish Long.
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☀+最后一次！！+☀
真的最后一次了！！！
我不想再谈你了！！！
你的所作所为我很不喜欢！！！
你让我太失望了！！！
你整天叫人家think b4 talk...
但是你往往都不会想自己！！！
我跟你分手到现在我根本没有写那么多东西在facebook!!!
而你一直都再写！！！
如果你要让人家知道你是多么的惨！！
多么的受伤！！那是你的问题！
我一直都不出声不代表我不在乎。。只是我不想说那么多！！
对！！我的错！！我伤害了你！！是我提出分手！！
可是难道我受的伤比你少吗？？？？
而我有没有告诉所有人啊？？？
而你呢？？？
算了！我根本不想要去说什么！！
只是你让我最生气的是，你既然骂帮助我们的人！！！
他好心来告诉你！你骂他！
你说之前挽留？！你说你有诚意？！
好！！我现在来告诉你！你做的东西根本不是挽留！！
如果你要看，你倒可以看一看其他人的行为！
其他人的挽留！！！电话一通也没有！！
挽回也是sms我？！
而那些sms 好像是再给我机会？？
我的错吗？？？？是你在给我机会回到你身边吗？？？？？？
一次的挽留就没了吗？？？那叫诚意？？
不瞒你说，我一直都在等你的诚意，你的动作！
可是没有！我等的都是空气！！！
分手后，其他男生约我我都没出去。。（只有一个好朋友我应约）
不认识的不理！！clubbing 更不用说？
而你呢？？立刻马上找女生！！
哈！男人都是一样的！！！
我本来不想说那么多！我不想破坏你！！不想再伤害你！！
而你呢？？？？分手后一直一直再伤害我！！你知道吗？？
你以为你那样子做对吗？？？
你告诉所有的人你怎样伤心！怎样的诚意挽留！！！
这是在破坏我！！！
哈！！你的朋友说的吗！好马不吃回头草！！！
而我听到的是“好马不吃回头草，好草不怕回头吃”！！
我的朋友都在帮我跟你！！我都很珍惜她们的帮助！！
我知道很多很多事情！！！我的一举一动都会有人向你说！！！
我知道！！！你应该也懂我要知道一样事情不难！！
我保持沉默是想要有余地！！可是你呢？？
算了！！！！我不想说那么多了！！
我也不会让你伤害！！我说过我能忍！但是忍耐有限度的！！！！！


☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 2:51 AM by Fish Long.
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Sunday, April 11, 2010
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☀+谎言？+☀
刚才去你的家收拾东西。。。
我以为我自己很坚强，可是原来不是。。。
我哭了。。。我忍不住了。。
算了。。就算哭又如何。。结果还是一样。。
我已经收拾的七七八八的了。。
在我要走的那一刻你抱了我一下。。
什么也没说。。挽留的话也没有说。。
我走了。。真的走了。。你送也没送我。。
没有对我说什么。。。
我驾着车，兜兜转转半个槟城岛。。。
很迷失。。。
回到家。。看到你写的。。
你已经挽回了。。可是如果你觉得抱了一下是等于挽回。。
那是我要求太高了。。。
你没有让我看到你的诚意。。
算了。。真的算了。。一切的一切都过了。。
如果你要让大家知道你多么的“用心”挽回，
那随便你。。我做坏人又如何？
不是。。我本来就是坏人。。
是我甩了你，不了解你！
不接受你的挽回！
不想再说了。。。

☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 6:35 PM by Fish Long.
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Saturday, April 10, 2010
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☀+绊脚石+☀
我不会再去在意你的什么。。
我也再不是你的绊脚石。。
你要做什么都可以了。。
没有人能阻止你了。。。
原来我是你所谓的绊脚石。。。
不过我现在忽然想通了。。。
因为我记得你曾经说过当你不喜欢那个人的时候，
你就会搞到让对方开口说分手。。
也许是对的。。你对我的不在乎你对我的一切，
也许你是要让我开口。。
痛心的不是分手而是分手后你的态度。。
可能这样对彼此也好。。
因为没有人再能阻止你要做的一切。。
我想说那么久以来，让你做不了你自己。。
真的对不起。。现在的你终于可以做回你自己了。。
恭喜你。。。而我也是时候放弃所有的一切。。
我不想成为你的绊脚石！
真的最后一次了！！！
我不会再写了！！！
以后的一切都只是我的生活！
因为你已经不属于我的生活了！
我一个人的生活！

☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 1:18 AM by Fish Long.
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Tuesday, April 6, 2010
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☀+New Day+☀
i hate big tattoo..
i dunno y he go tattoo...
maybe he diao di kek me de?..
i scold him...
bcoz i wan he noe wat he doing..
tis is the attitude tat i reli dun like..
everytime he face a problem sure he will escape or 钻牛角尖...
i hate tat...
i wan my man to be brave..
i wan my man not easy to give up..
i wan my man escape the problem..
but he always like tat..
tat y i cant see any future between me n him..
i dunno wats the problem..
how i gonna follow him for whole life..
i tot i leave him,he will noe wat to change...wat to improve..
but no...i dunno wat to say..
i noe jz now i scold him,sure he will emo..
but i reli wan him to improve...watever la..
next..girlgirl ar girlgirl..
i hope u dun be so stupid la..
jz now u come find me for dinner..
i ask u abt u n "HIM" things..
i noe u care "him"..
but for me,i noe "he" jz wanna use u only neh..
jz now i dun reli wanna tell u,its bcoz later u scold me again..
"He" only find u when "he" feel lonely..
if "he" reli not love to "his" gf,sure "he" break up one mah..
if not how "he" will folow gf go travel..
i dunno how to say u lor..
i noe when i tell u the truth u will hurt..
but i dun wan u step too deep...
i noe u finding reason for u n "him"
but if u still drag like tis,get hurt is u..
haiz..watever la..i oso hope u success de~gambateh~
i noe u din see my blog~XP..sry talk ur things here~XD
ok la..
everyone~i slp le~good nite~❤
oh ya~today reli funny~coz of cecilia siti fern~hahahaha

☆~▶Fish Long◀~☆
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Written at 1:15 AM by Fish Long.
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Sunday, April 4, 2010
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☀+New Day+☀
jz now he ask me talk b4 i think...
how mad i am...
i cry....i cant control my tears...
so emo...alone in hostel..
cook maggie by myself..
long time din cook by myself le...
jz now talk v "girlgirl"...
i tell "girlgirl" all the truth things..
but suddenly "girlgirl" say me talk b4 im think..
tis sentense reli make me hurt...
on tat time "he" sms me ask me wan get back v him or not..
damnn...all the thing crash together..
i jz helping "girlgirl"...i dun wan she get hurt..
but she blame me..i put my all anger on her..
starting vry emo..and i off my msn..off my facebook...
keep crying on my bed...and i din reply "him" coz i dunno wat to say..
suddenly "girlgirl" call me and apologize to me..
she say doesnt mean to talk like tis..jz moody..
and i oso apologize to her..coz i oso put my anger on her...
and she ask me to dlt all my word..tat i say im brainless..im useless word..
after tis i reply him..say im dunno..
actually i reli dunno wat to do..
i reli confuse wat i want...
i keep emo..keep emo...
but girlgirl trying to make me happy...thx girlgirl..
i noe u treat me as ur little little sister...
but pls next time dun put ur anger on me..i vry hate tat!
ok..
i dunno should i gv another chance..
but i still din see anything he change..
i would say when he reli change..n its time to say yes to him..
oh ya...new blog address..
many ppl dunno...hoho..i jz wan to let some of u guy noe only~
hehe~for u guy who noe i change my address keep secret ya~
good nite everyone~
tonite got one weird flying thingy in my room..
>.<..hope it dun come kacau me~
oh ya~last i wan to good luck to girlgirl..
coz tmr is her day~❤


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Written at 1:11 AM by Fish Long.
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Saturday, April 3, 2010
☀+New Day+☀
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☀+New Day+☀
New day~
i wake up early morning..
and slp back..and i had a nitemare..
i dream something i should not dream...
yes..i promise myself to let all the thing go...
i sure i can do tat....
but i dream him..bad dream..he in a relationship v tat girl..
i hate tat...and all his brothers boikot me....
and they say tat girl is better than me..
wat a stupid dream...watever...
i wont thinking anymore...
if he reli have a relationship v other..
i will be happy...wish u two...
ok....i said tat i dun wan talk abt him~
now~talk abt me~
wake up early morning..erm..not early la..11.30am something..
go bath..and wash my clothe..T.T...i miss my house de washing machine..
and now start blogging..and facebooking..
someone is drunk yesterday nite...hope he will be better la~
i hope all my friend are good lor~
oh ya...later gonna go art exhibition...
i hate tat..still have to do report...
kanasai....


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Written at 12:37 PM by Fish Long.
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Thursday, April 1, 2010
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❈Back to my Life❈※11th day※
i guess it the last day tat i wrote abt him...
i saw his status in facebook..is "in an open relationship"
wat does it mean?
some say is the relationship is every noe..
some say is open to chase someone..
some say is single?..tis quite funny lor..
watever..i guess is open relationship lor..mean pak toh lor..
i heart is break...so fast to get new relation..
tat mean he reli put down..y he can so fast to put down everything?
mayb he reli dun care me oledi..
mayb i make a right choice...
coz he din call me,din sms me,even pm oso no..
he din take any action to get back v me..
tis prove tat he oledi let me go long time ago..
mayb 3 years relation is getting light..
ya...i can say b4 we break..
we not as sweet as b4..
we not as smooth as b4..
mayb the relation between us is getting light..
你对我可能感已经淡了，所以你放得很快...
jz now someone said all he done now is wan too make me anger...
if he reli wan to do tat..then congrate he success to make me anger..
watever..i reli dunno wat to do..
jz now he ask me for the passport..
i guess he gonna leave m'sia..
he gonna leave me soon..
leave me forever and ever..
how long i wait is wasted...
is time to say goodbye to pass..
face th future...y i have to ve so suffer..i dunno..
god playing at me?..
nth can do..
ok..go to slp...good nite..

oh ya...i have to say..i will change my blog address...sry..
if u wan my new address can ask me..will start on tomorrow nite..
tis address will close..ermm...
last...god bless u...wish u have a happpy day without me...




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Written at 3:36 AM by Fish Long.
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